Baby…
Robin, love, I tried to get off work so we didn’t have to discuss this over letters. But Rivah really needs us in today to finish up this paperwork.
I don’t want you to just have one person, Robin. I don’t want to be what pulls you back, my love, or keeps you from getting your friend back. You two need each other. You know that. You don’t think he wants Millie to think the same of me that you think of him, do you? It goes both ways.
You want to know why it happened? I can tell you exactly why. You won’t like it, but eventually I suppose I have to say it.
I told you about his family essentially taking me in. You know that part. But after graduation, we went to a party, and I mean, it was essentially the same thing that happened this time only he started it then. Robin, if what happened at Christmas was anything, it was a residual memory of happier times. It wasn’t me truly wanting him. I mean, I was so far gone I may have thought it was you sitting there. I can’t remember. That, of course, is also entirely my fault.
It all happened because I was jealous. You can’t possibly think that I don’t wish I were home right now to prove how very badly I need you. How much and how desperately I love you. Don’t you think for a moment that I could ever leave you. Not really. I don’t care if one of us gets frustrated and walks off – I will do everything in my power to make you come back. Or to find my way back to you. Don’t dare think otherwise.
You need to be mine as I am yours, or I will actually go mad. So I need you to accept this. To move past it. To keep me. I cannot lose someone who is actually part of me.
xx
by 
