Losing sanity means losing hope

It was almost midnight as Lilian crept out of the Ravenclaw common room careful not to make a sound as she headed towards the Astronomy Tower. As she tip-toed across the girls' dorm and out the Ravenclae common room she grabbed her Ravenclaw robe around her some more and continued onwards to the Astronomy tower. As she seen a prefect coming she hid in shadows until she seen the prefect round the corner. Taking her chance she ran the rest of the way up to the tower. As she reached the tower panting she laid her blanket down and laid down on top of it looking at the full moon and stars.

It was the only place Lily could escape that was peaceful and quiet and that was what she needed. Lilian couldn't help but not think about this sickness that she has, it has not only affected her but her magic making her feel useless. It wasn't because she was simply a pure-blood but it was because magic was a part of her and it was something that she was good at. Of course, she was good at sketching and designing things but magic was what kept her happy and sane and without she felt like a empty shell. Her spells were simply sloppy and even when she does simple spells they simply don't work the way she wants them to.

Lily was starting to lose hope that she would get back to her normal self, her father wouldn't eve look at her because of it. It was one thing that Lily always feared was happening, and that was disgracing her father. Sighing to herself she kept looking at the stars wishing she could just disppear with them. As she wrapped her second blanket around her she kept looking at the stars deep in thought.

Subastian was walking when he saw a girl running for the astronomy tower and followed her. He pulled out a handkerchief from his pocket and coughed into as quietly as he could. Then he went up the stairs after her then he watched her for a minute as she wrapped herself in two blankets then it hit him. "Do you have the illness too?" He asked not wanting to scare her. He was still partly in the shadows where she couldn't see his face but you could tell from his voice that he was Irish. He was wearing sweatpants and a thick hooded sweatshirt, he didn't know what to say to her but he didn't know what else to do.

Lily blotted up right at the sound of the boy voice and grabbed her wand out of her robes knowing that wouldn't do her any good seeing how she sucks at doing magic. Lily pocked her wand and nodded and when he asked if she had the sickness to. "Yeah I do, and to be honest with you it's not good I can't even do simple spells without something exploding!"said Lily sighing. "Oh so rude of me I'm Lilian, Lilian D'Eath but call me Lily cause I don't like the name Lilian to serious for my taste."said Lily softly. "I'm guessing you have the sickness as well."said Lilian noticing he had a something in his hands. "You know, I maybe sick but I'm not going to hurt you!"said Lily softly.

"I'm Subastian Haversham, I know you won't hurt me." Subastian said coming out of the shadows reveling his height. "Even if you did i couldn't defend myself, i'm practically useless without my wand that and i don't hit girls." He lifted the handkerchief to his mouth again coughing into it, wincing slightly cause his throat was raw from having coughed so many times that day. "I saw you running and i wanted to make sure you were okay." He leaned back against the railing because he was losing his energy slowly.

"Nice to meet you Subastian, come take a seat and look at the stars with me!'said Lily softly as she let out a small cough. Lily nods. "I know how you feel, I have my wand but ti's pretty much use less seeing how I can't do magic."said Lily softly. Lily looked at him and nodded. "Yeah I'm fine, thankyou for asking I just needed to get away from the noise and stuff you know."said Lily softly but weakly. Lily was losing engery fast there wasn't much strength in her left. She was surprise that she had enough enegry to make it here, but she doubts she'll make it back for she's to weak.

Subastian smiled at her invitation to sit down and look at the stars with her, he sat down and sighed softly. Damon started to conserve his energy because it looked like Lilian wouldn't have enough to make it back to her dorm. "Yeah i know what you mean. I was off taking my usual walk, it makes me sleep better at night when i do, the ghosts know i do but don't say anything." He said leaning his head back against the wall looking up at the stars. "There's a lot of them up there, it's amazing that there are so many."

Lily turned to look at him and nodded. "Yeah I think it's the same for me, I come here almost every night just to think and get away from things."said Lily softly. Looking back at the stars she smiled at his comment. "I know, it never cease to amaze me how many they are."said Lily softly as her eyes sparkled in the moonlight. "I love looking at the stars, wondering how something so beautiful can be a million miles away."said Lily softly but in a weak voice. As she let out a small cough she shivered and brought her blanket closer to her trying to keep herself warm. "Stupid sickness."said Lily to herself but she was sure Subastian could hear her seeing how he was near her.

Subastian saw her shiver then he got up taking off one of his sweatshirts handing it to her. "Here wear this it will keep you warm. Don't worry about me i'll be fine with one less sweatshirt, you need it more than i do." He smiled softly at her and then looked up at the stars. "Yeah but there are plenty of beautiful things here that are close enough for us to look at. Like there's the gardens that i used to see in Ireland that would bloom so beautiful that not even a picture of them did them justice. Then there's the ocean the way the sun hits it when it's going down is amazing there's no describing it. There's so many beautiful things so close to us that it is impossible for us not to notice when it's looking us right in the face."

As she took his sweatshirt she put on and give him a soft warm smile. "Thankyou Subastian."said Lily softly as she put it on. Lily looked at him and nodded. "I never been to Ireland, but from I hear it's really beautiful any time of the year."said Lily softly. "I love looking at the sunset when it hits the ocean it's so beautiful and claming."said Lily softly. "When I went to Hawaii with my family last summer it was one of the most beautiful places I ever seen."said Lily softly. "I sketched so many things there, maybe I can show you them sometime."said Lily softly.

"Your welcome Lily. Yeah Ireland is wonderful all year round but I like it best in spring, when everything is coming back into bloom. It's like the trees, flowers, and animals are more alive during this time. I've never been to Hawaii the furthest i have ever gone is England and Scotland but no further than that. My siblings aren't allowed to travel that far anymore cause they get in trouble with my mother too much." Subastian said smiling to himself as he stretched slowly. "I would love to see your sketches, I'm a horrible drawer but I take very good pictures. In Ireland at my home i have several of my pictures hanging on the walls."