Sister, Sister where did you go?

LIly wasn't one to show her emotions. Well not her bad ones anyway. On the rare occasions she did, boy did they come out. Many didn't know how to deal with an emotional Lily, well maybe Lysander did, but other than that even her brothers didn't seem to know how to cheer her up. They couldn't fix things, they couldn't play god and bring back her father, no matter how hard they wanted to. So Lily took to just crying herself exhausted somewhere where people didn't usually go. Myrtle was a suprisingly good crying buddy. What the ghost had to cry about, Lily didn't really know or care.

Lily sniffed pathetically as she gazed at herself in the mirror. She had the famous Weasley hair of course and the wide eyes that many said her mother had herself. Lily couldn't see herslef as either a Potter or a Weasley. Not just in looks but everything. She wasn't brave, she wasn't one to take charge. She just tried her best to please everyone so often it collapsed on itself a majority of the time. To most people, she was just Little Potter, her brothers who overshadowed her. Not that she minded, she loved them to bits but sometimes she just want to be Lily not Lily Potter.

Mariana was sitting in her common room not doing anything important just thinking about everything and everyone that ever happened to her. Ofcourse bringing memories back wasn't the best passtime since it was hard to find some that were actually happy. All these days she was acting too strong and overconfident even though deep down she knew it was only the best role of her life. Then again big part of her life ever since she started Hogwarts and moved to Mexico with her grandpa almost 8 years ago after Harry died was sort of a lie.

Her face had her natural expression now that she was alone though in public her reactions were fearless. Mariana suddenly got up and ended up walking through Hogwarts with the masked expression which was supported by the lot of eyeliner she put on her eyes to make her look darker. She was passing by the floors not looking at anyone in particular or looking for anyone in particular. Dungeons, Ground Floor, First floor all looked the same, but then after passing by Moarning Myrthie's bathroom she heard someone. That batroom was only used by people who wanted to be alone.

She was about to continue her way, but her curiousity was more stronger so she opened the door walking inside slowly. "Hello are you alright?" she asked still not seing who the girl was not even imagining it was Lilly. That could give away whole secret adopted by Harry Potter secret she held with Gabrielle. Though Derek or Monet didn't remember her Lilly did which would eventually end up revealing everything.

Lily was still sniffing heavily when she heard a voice, one of which was familiar but not so at the same time. This was the main reason Lily hated getting emotional, it was a hard thing to do on one's own. She sighed deepily before replying, "I-I-'m fine-e-e." Lily stuttered pathetically as she rubbed her eyes furiously, now wishing that the tears would stop.

Lily pulled a hankie out of her pockets, still not turning around due to her embarassing state of dishovelled appearance, rubbing the material against her eyes as it asorbed the newer tears. Still not even the hankie stopped the tears. Now this was why Lily didn't get emotional. She just couldn't stop the tears once they started. 'Ah, ignorance is bliss.' She though poetically.

Alot of thoughts passed through Mariana's head though none of them had nothing to do with this particular moment. Everything that could pop onto her mind in that moment popped from nowhere, while millions and millions of thoughts were held in her head. She still wasn't close enough to the girl to recognize her since even though she wasn't that far girl's face was lowered down not sure why.

Her feet slowly dragged her over to the girl while she pulled out a chocolate out of her pocket though in other times she would just walk away. Interupting people who searched for peace wasn't her favourite passtime since she knew how it was when one wanted to be alone. "Here when i am sad i take a bit of chocolate. My name is Mariana by the way.." she commented offering the girl she still didn't recognize the piece of chocolate.

Lily sniffed slightly before taking the chocolate and saying, "Thanks." Then paused when the kind apparent not so stranger said her name. She glanced up, how many Mariana's can there be? She wondered he gazed seconding that thought as she studied her familiar friend and sort of sister. "Mari, oh, I didn't realize it was you!" She said now feeling idiotic for looking less than composed.

Lily blew a stray hair off her face as she ate the chocolate slowly. She wasn't sure what to say. It was an unfamiliar feeling, Lily usually just said what first came to mind, sometimes without editing first. She gazed back in the mirror with a small sigh.

Mariana just stood there waiting for the girl to take her chocolate before she would try to tell her anything else. Her mouth stayed wordless once she saw she just bumped into her foster sister to whome she didn't see since the day her grandpa came over to England and claimed the right over her taking her to Mexico with him untill she started Hogwarts. And though Lily was already a 3rd year she never really saw her since they didn't take same classes.

Now she was there sitting on the floor. "Lily.." was the only thing she was able to say at first not sure what to say or what to ask. It was too many years since their last reunion. "What's wrong?" she asked still not looking at any particular direction since she knew there was a whole bunch of questions coming...

[[OOC:Let's just assume this was BEFORE PA training..]]

"Just missing.....Dad....I never really knew him though." Lily said with a sniff as she gazed around. She had no idea what to say. She hadn't seen Mari in a long time, and now it felt as though there was this emotional gap between them. She was glad that Mari had found her family, but Lily felt as though in doing so, she'd abandoned her old one. Abandoneed her.

"Where have you been all this time?" Lily asked trying to stop more tears coming by distracting herself. Lily didn't hate Mari for what happened, but she couldn't help but feel disappointed that she hadn't even gotten a letter, a photo, something from her.

[OOC: Yeah I assumed that.]

Mariana could understand Lily perfectly. After all Harry was her foster dad and he wasn't the only one close to her that died. Her parents did aswell. "I don't know what to tell you, but i want you to know that i know how it feels.But i am not best person to talk about those things.." she said trying to hold her expression calm though suddenly a whole set of emotions started coming out of nowhere.

Her face was still unchanged though it wouldn't be so for much longer. "Well as you know my grandfather from Mexico came to our old house one day and claimed his right over me. Your dad tried to stop him from taking me, but it didn't serve for anything.." was the first thing she replied remembering the scene when her grandpa took her and alot of people were crying once he walked out the door. She didn't excatly reply to Lily's question though she knew her little foster sister was persistant and it was logic she would ask for a valid explenation.

"It's just that Mom wont talk about it and it's not the kind of thing you bring up around your brothers." Lily said honestly as she shrugged slightly and leaned against the sink, ignoring the stiffness in her back. She gazed at her foster sister with hint of curiousity.

"You know, at the time, I didn't really understand what was going on...." Lily said remembering her confused state after the incident. She had been to young at the time to understand why Mari was being taken away. Of course she understood now, but it still didn't mean she accepted it.

Mariana was doing a big effort not to let her emotions spread across her face though she knew sooner or later Lily's presence with questions she was hardly able to reply would eventually make her do that. "At least you have a mom to talk to. Look on the bright side. At least you have her, i lost them both before i was even able to figure out what was going on.." she said taking a seat on the floor close enough to Lily. Imiges strated crowling through her head as she was seing her parents burn again.

"You were very little. Maybe 5,6 years old. But it happened and maybe it was better." she said not believing in that trully it was only what her emotional state was screaming at her. Death of Harry was always on her concience as it was her fault. "But how is mom anyway?" she asked not sure why she still called her mom though she guessed it was only a habit she never gave up on.